Two sleeps

Two sleeps until we find out if we're having a boy or a girl. I'm really excited, but I'm also really nervous. It's been five weeks since our last appointment...just enough time for me to wonder if anything is wrong. I'll admit it. I'm paranoid. I'm a worrier. And until I hear that heartbeat and see that our little baby has all his or her fingers, toes and assorted parts, I'll be nervous. I just can't help it. It's taken us this long to get to this point. At some point, I think I started believing we didn't deserve to have a child. I know...that's silly talk. Still, it's what I'm feeling.